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The cracks had been showing for weeks.
Georgesfriendsandmotheralso didnt seem wild about the match, which only further fueled viewers doubts.
appeared to happen off-screen.
What caused your breakup?
I just thought,Okay, hes feeling really sad about this.
He feels things very deeply.
So the lead-up to this conversation, I was like, Hey, I feel like somethings off.
Then he was like, Yeah, Im having doubts.
I dont know if he was ever going to bring it up otherwise.
Who were you able to meet from Ramsess circle?
We didnt see any of that onscreen.I met his mom through FaceTime, and she was lovely.
Shes very beautiful and very nice.
And I also met two of his close girl friends girls that are friends, not ex-girlfriends.
Those meetings went really well.
And Ramses was so sure until he wasnt, right?
It didnt seem like any of his friends asked him that.
I think his brother might have, but that was the day before the breakup.
Thats so jarring.It wassojarring!
Im not gonna lie.
I dont want to do anything anymore.
At that point, you feel like your worlds upside down, really.
Youre like, Am I freaking crazy?
I could tell in his lack of enthusiasm.
In the moment, I brushed things aside because I took him at face value.
Im saying, Hey, if you have any doubts, lets talk about it.
Look at him and say, Well, youre lying?
But Im also thinking, This is part of the experiment.
Hes overwhelmed and stressed by filming and all the moving pieces.
I just felt like I needed to step up to help him there.
After the breakup, you called your mom to talk through it.
Her initial response was, All right, so let me talk to him.
And I was like, No, youre going to friggin bitch him out!
You guys clearly do love each other.
What is going on?
Just trying to get him to see reason that its scary but we could do this.
Her response was actually a lot different than I thought it would be.
I gave him the option, because he kept saying, I love you.
I want to be with you.
I was like, Okay, lets be logical.
We dont have to do the marriage.
We could just stay engaged.
Or, We dont have to stay engaged.
We could just date.
And I didnt really want to break up, to be honest.
But I was willing to meet him at a place where he was never willing to meet me.
Hed already made his decision.
I really had no say in this breakup.
This lack of room for discussion does make me think of Ramsess seemingly uncompromising opposition to condoms.
We did talk about vasectomy.
He actually was like, Whoa, I need to think about that.
Most men dont have to think about that.
It kind of addressed this privilege that he never needed to think about it.
From what weve seen, it looked like you were left in an impossible situation.It did, right?
I was naive in that sense.
I mean, they still are to this day.
But once we broke up, they were furious about how it came about.
They hated that aspect, and they hated how much it broke me, so they hate that man.
How did you heal yourself from it?Its probably the most heartbroken Ive ever felt.
I dont really recall much of the two days after the breakup.
I cried a lot.
I couldnt speak, honestly.
I felt very dumb and very stupid.
It made me question everything Ive worked on in therapy for many years.
I had to stop drinking.
And I recognized that and took a break from all that.
Obviously, I went to therapy.
And I surrounded myself with my friends and family.
Thats how I coped.
