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He also claims he delivered OBriens heartfelt letter but that his sister never told him whether she read it.
I mean, I dont think that would change anything on her end, he reflected.
At that time, my sister knew what she knew.
And so did I. I wanted to isolate myself for it.
How do you feel watching yourself back?Throughout the entire process, I was just myself.
But watching some of the other cast members, it seems like people put on an act.
They know when theyre micd and when theyre being filmed.
Has your sister been watching the show?Yes.
Whats the age gap there?Shes two years older than me.
She obviously feels bad about that.
Honestly, its been hard for me to relive those moments, too.
I dont know why Lauren thought that.
She said she found it in my jacket pocket.
I dont know why shes going through my jacket pocket, but thats a different story, I guess.
I gave the letter to my sister.
Whether she read it or not was up to her.
If she thought it was relevant at that time, that was her call.
Have you ever been in a relationship that your sister didnt approve of?No.
People online are reacting strongly to how much you wanted her to approve the relationship.
Is that something you two often Oh, absolutely.
Any relationship I have, Im gonna want my sisters approval.
And the crazy thing to me is, like, thats getting blown out of proportion.
For some reason, everyones just pointing at me and my sister.
Buteveryonethroughout this show has said how important family is to them, and getting their approval as well.
So I dont get why its just being pointed at me.
What about your friends?
Have they ever disapproved of one of your past relationships?No, not at all.
My friends are very easygoing.
Were all there to support each other.
My friends would never lie to me just to sabotage a relationship.
They disapproved of the process.
The goal was to get married in two weeks, and that was not okay with people.
The extent of that relationship, I still dont know.
I didnt know her name.
I didnt know any details about who it was.
I was like, hey, theres 15 other women who are going, what are the odds?
One-night stands or little flings are very normal these days.
But the information I knew at that time was that it wasnt casual.
In my head, that timeline does not add up.
Almost like keeping the door open in case it didnt work out.
I guess the long answer is, no, we didnt specifically talk about it.
I just stayed away from him.
Those are things Im bringing into my current life and relationships going forward.
I felt that viewers would understand and maybe be able to relate to that.
Nobodys perfect in this world.
I was being honest about that from the start, but I guess nobody really cares about that.
Especially that close to going into the show.
Any relationship Ive been in thats become physical, theres definitely an emotional connection for me, regardless.
That just doesnt make sense to me.
Were you celibate for the past four years that you were single?No, I wasnt.
Okay, so it sounds like you definitely still feel justified in some of your concerns and subsequent actions.Mm-hmm.
Im being very misunderstood by a lot of people right now, and its very tough to deal with.
