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Its not easy to see the Church you were sealed intocondemn your own show.
Its even harder to have the cracks in your marriage exposed for the whole worlds entertainment.
Still, there were some perks to going on the show.
And, as her households primary breadwinner while Zac is in medical school, the paycheck doesnt hurt.
Ive done a lot of therapy since filming, she says.
Ive done the work in healing to be able to celebrate this day, which is a win.
How did you get involved with the show?I didnt know anyone from the group.
Would you consider yourself a part of MomTok?I got into MomTok about a year ago.
It isnt just for business, which I wasnt expecting.
I went into MomTok with the mentality of, This is a business opportunity and nothing more than that.
I didnt expect to get as close as I did with all the girls.
You had been on social media before that.
Whats your relationship with socials?It was never my plan to do social media.
A couple years ago, I started up my videography business.
I ended up posting my pregnancy journey, and it blew up and got like 9 million views overnight.
Tell me about filming the show, then.
I think there are times that I maybe should have taken a step back.
If theres one thing I could change, it would be how much I ate throughout.
I was snacking and eating in every scene.
Im like, Oh wait, I do that naturally.
Thats how you know that everything was authentic.
I want to go through some of the shows subplots.
You wear garments as a reminder of the promises that you make in the temple.
I definitely wanted to be reminded throughout the show that Im representing something bigger than me.
Im representing my religion, my faith, my relationship with God.
How are you feeling about that fight airing?Its scary to have your relationship exposed to the world.
Since filming, weve done therapy nonstop.
If we continue in our relationship, there are changes that need to be made.
If theyre not made, we might have to … look at other options.
But as of right now, I do think hes trying his best to make those changes.
Did you watch those episodes with Zac?Hes actually in school now.
Hes studying for three tests.
I watched it with my girlfriend last night.
It was hard to watch, but also therapeutic.
Its hard for me to say that out loud.
Those final episodes also show Zac gambling.
With the show out, were reliving it.
Its definitely taboo in Mormon culture, but I have many friends in the Church that gamble.
Its a fun, light-hearted thing.
The Church had a fairlynegative reactionto the show.
How do you feel about that?I see where theyre coming from.
I know what its like to be part of the Church and have people perceive us wrong.
I think the statement was more for members of the Church than for non-members.
Obviously, it stings a little bit to read it and know theyre talking about us.
There was Jennifer Lopez who was Jennifer Affleck, but now switched back to her name.
Im the last Jennifer Affleck standing!
Im the new Jenny from the Block.
How are you related to Ben?Ive never met him, and neither has my husband.
Have you heard anything from his camp?Nothing.
But Im curious to know if hes watched.
